Don’t be impatient with yourself right now. It takes time to learn something new, and you have to adjust your expectations. Try to be a lot more realistic! Be prepared for this day to feel challenging, and don’t be surprised if at the end of it you feel like you’ve moved three steps forward and two steps back. You’re learning your limits, and learning is always a good use of your time. There is no futility here. It’s all going to be worth something sooner or later.